Obviously, that is not my quote, and you may know where it originates, but it is true and will continue to be so. I was reminded of this topic by reading about Greg Cotikyan attending a game design class, at Simulations Publications, Inc. (SPI), the legendary game company, when Greg was 13 years old. Greg has gone on to make a career in gaming.
In retrospect, I always did what I thought I should be doing, not what I would have liked to do. Even now, I have to be content to pursue my passion on a part time basis. I still don't really have a clue about how to pursue it full time. My passion, doing historical research, almost like a detective or intelligence analyst, has been the one longterm thread in my life, since I was a teenager.
The closes I came to doing something with it was participating in the design and artwork for John Hill's original Bar Lev. John Hill has a flare for game design, much as Greg Costikyan must. John is best known for the Squad Leader game. When I knew John, he had a PhD in History, and was reduced to having a hobby store in Lafayette, Indiana, that I frequented. At the time, I lived close by, and just happened on his store. I was as big a customer as I could be, given a miniscule income.
Almost twelve years ago, I started listening to the guys who were talking about dreams and how to realize them. I pretty much tuned out that part of the message. Somehow, I thought you could go through the motions without really having a reason. It should not be surprising to those who have been educated by these guys, that it didn't work very well.
About four or five years ago, I was sitting around, grousing about how everyone else in my life was "chasing their dreams" (I would now say, "realizing their dreams"), and I had to be just working at something to earn money.
Then something clicked for me. Nothing said that I couldn't be doing something about my passion, just as my other close family members were. That is when I started to get more serious.
One of the things the guys I have been hanging around for so long say, is to find someone who is doing what you want to be doing, and associate with them, and learn what they do and how they think. My first attempt at that was to call up Frank Fox, in Birmingham. Thankfully, he was open to talking.
What I find, now, is that I am happy to talk with and return correspondence from people who are interested in the same subjects as I am. One of my failings is that I still think of it as being "far off in the weeds", as we would say in Texas. That probably diminishes my effectiveness, to be thinking that way. That is why I affirm that "I'm right where I need to be, doing what I need to be doing" and "I'm realizing my dreams" and "I'm worthy and my dreams are worthwhile". It may seem silly, but it is the kind of thing needed to reprogram one's "self talk".